Chapter 228: My Medicine

Okay, so I am going to keep it brief tonight for various reasons but there are two main ones – it’s late and I don’t have much to say. It was a boring day. I woke up this morning and did my usual morning routine, (skin care, brushing teeth, coffee, cigarettes, breakfast, etc.) Then I pulled up last night’s episode of “True Blood” online and spent an hour watching that before work. It was an hour I could have and should have spent working out, which I haven’t done in nearly three weeks. It’s just been a strange past few weeks for me, between the wedding and having family at the house and being in a highly stressful emotional state this past week and a half, I just haven’t managed to bring myself to get up and work out in the morning. I absolutely have to get back to that. I know I will. Maybe I will do an extra large workout tomorrow, since it is my day off. We’ll see. Anyway, after “True Blood,” I got myself dressed and did hair and makeup for the day. I did a fun look with pink and gold that is reminiscent of looks I’ve done before but kind of different – different in a good way. I liked it a lot. Work felt dreadfully long today. I spent pretty much the entire day reading the first book in the “Gossip Girl” series. I have read this book a few times in the past but I keep re-reading it because I want to read the rest of the series but I want to read the ones I’ve already read first, which is just the first three in the series, to kind of refresh myself on where the story left off by the time I get to the ones I haven’t read yet. So, I managed to read two thirds of this one today at work. Aside from that, though, I didn’t do much of anything at work. I didn’t really talk to my co-workers much or anything. I just wasn’t in a mood for anything today. I was also exceptionally tired all day and had trouble keeping myself awake towards the end of the day. By the time I got home from work I was exhausted. My Mom was pretty exhausted, too, even though she had today off. So, we decided to just order in Chinese food and lay around watching TV this evening. What did we watch? VH1 “Behind The Music” specials. We watched the one on Christina Aguilera, which made me cry, and the one on Courtney Love, which left me feeling exceptionally inspired. Too bad that by the time I finished it I was too exhausted to do anything with that inspiration. I am too exhausted to do anything with tonight’s blog, either. I don’t even need to take one of my “dolls” tonight. “Dolls” is my new name for the pills that I take to get to sleep at night – Tylenol PM or Sominex or Unisom type stuff. Nothing hardcore like the “dolls” from “Valley Of The Dolls,” but I still like to call them that because I am a dork and like to pretend that I am some beautiful, tragic diva from the 60s, like Neely O’Hara, slowly driving myself into oblivion with my addiction to these little pills. Ugh, I am talking crazy now and really must get to bed. Goodnight.