Chapter 210: Alejandro

I have to be honest with you all, my loyal readers. This blog is going to be a little destitute over the next five days or so. I mean, I will still be updating every day, business as usual, but I will likely not be writing anywhere near as much as I do on an average day. It’s going to be a little hectic around here moving forward, with family coming in and the wedding taking place and all that type of stuff. It is all really exciting and should be a lot of fun but it does make it a little difficult to maintain the whole daily blog thing. I am going to work it out, though. I am currently typing this from my living room on my Mom’s laptop, which will likely be the epicenter of blog updates for the next few days. My bedroom is now being occupied by my maternal grandmother, Carmen, and her friend who came along with her, Nettie, who arrived a little earlier this evening. Let’s start a little earlier than that, though.

I woke up late this morning, at nearly 6:45am. I had already planned on not working out this morning, so it worked out okay waking up late. Still, it made for an odd kind of morning. I decided to try something a little different with makeup today and attempted to recreate Kylie Minogue’s super shimmery white eye makeup from the “All The Lovers” video but it didn’t really work out because I put on way too much eyeliner. I didn’t really like the look of my makeup today but by the time I finished, it was too late to change it. It wasn’t bad but it wasn’t great, either. I think the issue was with the fact that this was a single eye shadow look and I didn’t add anything in the crease area to give my eyes extra definition, so I felt like my eyes just looked really small and flattened out, if that makes any sense. I just wasn’t very happy with it. Oh well, though. When I got to work, I was still feeling pretty groggy. I didn’t sleep the best last night, in spite of the fact that I slept too late today. I spent most of the day feeling really sleepy and struggling to keep myself awake. I tried various different ways to keep myself entertained, like playing sudoku or drawing, but nothing seemed to do the trick. Still, the day didn’t seem to take THAT long to pass. It felt long but it didn’t feel any longer than any other day, so I suppose that is an improvement on a lot of days recently.

One thing that has been plaguing my days recently is the weather here in Florida. Summer doesn’t officially start until June 21 but it is already feeling like a horribly hot summer. I hate it. I am really irritated with the weather already because it creates all kinds of inconvenience for me, particularly in terms of perspiration. It causes my makeup to lose it’s effect, causes me to take all kinds of extra precautions to avoid negative smells, etc. It is really annoying. I really hate the heat here and every summer here makes me miss California, where it was also hot but it was a dry heat and didn’t leave you feeling wet and sticky from the moment you step outside of your house. Florida is really a shitty place for a lot of different reason but the weather may be the worse of all of those reasons. I shouldn’t be so negative, though. Sarasota is a beautiful city, full of amazing culture and art and such. It is really a great place where we live and I really do like it a lot… it just also happens to be really shitty. It’s one of those things where I only talk about how horrible this place is because I have lived in a place that is much better and constantly compare it to that. I need to get back to California eventually. Not anytime soon, though.

I did wind up writing two new songs at work again today. Much like yesterday, the first one came out really quick and easy and just kind of flowed from me as if it were building up inside of me for ages and just had to make it’s way out somehow. Also like yesterday, the second song was a more difficult to get out. I didn’t work on the second one for quite as long as the second one from yesterday, though, and I actually felt about a million times better about this one than I did about the one from yesterday. Both of the songs today were very dance-oriented, which I was very excited about, especially the first one, which is called “Victims.” “Victims” is basically a song about questioning whether or not your relationships are organic or if you are “just victims of coincidence.” I was really excited by that concept because I am a firm believer in doing everything you can to create an organic experience for yourself in life but I also realize how easy it is to simply fall into patterns in our lives and not even recognize the fact that the things surrounding us are not things that we have chosen for ourselves. I liked it. It was very Gaga meets Kylie, which makes sense because they have both been some of my most frequently listened to music over the past couple of weeks.

After work, I came home and practiced piano for a little over 30 minutes then lied on my bed for a few minutes. I didn’t realize it until after the fact that I wasn’t there for a few minutes at all but I had actually fallen asleep for a little over an hour. I was really tired after I left work. I am still really tired, actually. My Mom’s boyfriend made dinner and then fell asleep pretty early, while my Mom and I waited up for her Mom to arrive. She finally got here just before 11pm and we all sat here and talked for a while. I could tell that my Mom was really happy and excited to have her Mom here. I was very happy, as well, although there is something about my grandma’s friend Nettie that makes me a little uncomfortable. I don’t know what it is exactly but I just don’t get a very positive vibe off of her. I’m probably just making snap judgments, though, which I really know better than to do. I’m sure she’s a lovely woman. It is really excited that I have my grandma here, though, and my aunt and cousin will be arriving tomorrow. It is all going to be a lot of fun, I think. In the meantime, though, it is after 2am right now and I really need to get to sleep. The couch awaits… Goodnight.