Chapter 97: Intermission

I really have no idea what to write about today. How unusual, right? I find it so funny any time I find myself without anything to say, especially in writing form. It is just really out of character for me. I may not always be talking to the people around me, but I am always thinking. I live my life with a head full of thoughts and ideas as my companion… but that lover has left me this evening, and I am just feeling kind of empty. I feel as if I have been drained of all the energy and creativity and all of my favorite parts of who I am today. I can’t imagine what could possibly be making me feel that way! Oh yeah, perhaps the fact that today was my 4th day in a row of overtime. Technically, it was actually only the 3rd consecutive day but it was the 4th business day in a row so it still counts. Today was a rough one to get through, too. I’m not sure what exactly it was, but it just felt like it took FOREVER to pass. Despite my insatiable hunger for money, I actually wound up leaving work early this evening. I mean, I still did 2 hours of overtime, but I didn’t wind up staying until 8pm. At around 6:30pm the overtime supervisor for the evening wound up coming around and asking who hadn’t had to leave early yet and it seemed as if I was the only one left who hadn’t. I was kind of disappointed, but at the same time I was very glad to have a little alone time at home for a bit. It’s been a while. Sadly, in the state I was and am in, I didn’t do much of anything with that time. I didn’t watch TV. I didn’t eat. I didn’t take a nap. I didn’t pleasure myself. I didn’t paint my nails. I didn’t do anything creative. Two of those statements are lies. Can you guess which ones? Here’s a hint – my nails are now bronze colored. The other will be left up to the imagination.

So, since nothing of interest took place today and I am having trouble thinking of things to discuss here, I am going to make this an off-night and not force myself through an hour and a half or two hours of blogging on and on without ever saying anything. Before I end this, though, I did kind of want to mention the fact that I made the decision today to open a bank account. I don’t have one currently and haven’t in about 3 years. I’m a little concerned about the whole concept and whether or not I will even be able to open one because of the fact that I have had two accounts in the past that I have kind of let go and still owe money on. Of course, one of those was over 7 years ago, which is when these things are supposed to clear your credit history, if I remember correctly. I don’t know how that works exactly but I have pretty well decided to try with Chase Bank, formerly Washington Mutual and intend to go down there on Saturday afternoon, (all of their locations in town are open until 3pm on Saturdays,) and give it a shot. My plan is to take out the $100 I have sitting in my Mom’s bank account right now from my income tax, (the money that was supposed to go to Eliezer Rivera,) and use that as the startup for a new account. I have been thinking about starting up a bank account for a while now because I feel like it would make things a lot easier for me in terms of not having to go pay to cash my check every two weeks and having a credit/debit card for things like online purchasing, etc., instead of having to go through my Mom any time I want to buy something that isn’t readily available to go out and pick up here in town. Plus, I think it’d be a good test for me to see if I can do the whole bank account thing again without running into the type of drama I did last time. I am a lot more responsible than I used to be and I think I could make it work this time without constantly overdrafting or anything. I think that will be a good thing for me moving forward. We’ll see how it goes, though. Like I said, I don’t know if I’ll even be able to get one due to my past indiscretions, but it is worth a shot.

It is 11:37pm right now and my alarm is set for 6:30am, so I should probably go try to go to sleep. I am feeling pretty tuckered out right about now and have at least one more 12-hour day ahead of me. I am kind of hoping that they offer it for Friday, as well. I know that I have gotten plenty of overtime at this point, but having more money can never hurt. I think if my Mom ends up paying the cell phone bill, I may use the overtime money to pay off my dentist, or at least set aside a part of it for that. I would really like to go out and buy some new clothes, too, but we’ll see whether or not that winds up happening. I don’t know what I’m going to end up doing with the extra cash, but whatever it is I’m sure I will figure out a way to make sure it is worthwhile. For now, though, it would be worth my while to get some sleep.