Chapter 189: Nothing

No blog tonight… at least, not a real one. It was a pretty awful day at work and it made me come to a realization – every single day at work there is something that I allow to make me feel very angry. I understand that anger is an emotion that we all have and it is just as valid as any other but I have always been pretty expert at not allowing my anger to affect me. I have always been one who could process anger immediately and recognize it for it’s real cause. You see, I don’t believe in genuine anger. I believe that there is always some other emotion that we are afraid of or unwilling to admit that creates anger in us. Therefore, it is always best to just address the actual root emotion. Still, I have found myself a lot recently allowing myself to become very angry in the workplace and I don’t like it. I need to figure out a way to change it. I had a little mini-meltdown at work today, internally, and found myself really unhappy with the entire day at that point. It took pretty much the entire day to calm myself down. In fact, it wasn’t until I got home that I could finally be at peace again. I tried while I was at work but my anger just kept coming back up. It all just made me realize that the whole extra day off thing could not have come at a better time. I feel like I could really use it right now. I wish it were tomorrow. Alas, I have to go back tomorrow. At least it’s Friday, though. Then comes the weekend. I am so ready for this weekend. All I have planned for this weekend is cleaning my bedroom and making it presentable for company. Also, trying to avoid spending money frivolously. I may have trouble with that but I’m going to try my best. For now, though, the thing I am having to try really hard to do is keep my eyes open. It sucks. Time for bed. I’ll talk in more detail about various topics mentioned tomorrow. Goodnight.