Chapter 354: Cartoon Heroes

I don't know what to say this evening. It's not for a lack of things to talk about, per se, but more based on the fact that I am exhausted & feeling kind of braindead this evening. You see, last night I had a lot of trouble sleeping & didn't wind up actually falling asleep until well into the 3am hour. I am not sure what the issue was exactly but it simply wasn't happening for me. I think it may have been a combination of having a lot going on in my head and also perhaps starting to get a little sick. I was coughing a lot and feeling kind of generally crappy. I don't know how to explain that feeling exactly because it's not exactly a feeling of illness but it's definitely not a feeling of wellness. It's just a feeling of not feeling well. I don't know what it is. I definitely don't think that I am getting sick for real at this point. I don't think this because I am not going to allow it to happen. Halloween is less than a week away and I absolutely do not intend to be sick for Halloween. It's only a few days from now that I have to get myself all dressed up in version one of my costume for the Halloween festivities at work, and then only a day more before I have to get myself all done up for real for my Halloween party. Oh yeah, I guess I forgot to mention the fact that I WILL be at work on Friday for the whole Halloween thing. I kind of discussed it with one of my co-workers who was already trying to get Friday off but was denied, so I decided to go ahead and switch with her. So, for this week, I am off on Wednesday and will be working Friday. My sister's girlfriend made some really good points about this whole thing, the main one being that Friday will basically just be a whole lot of dicking around for most of the day, and taking a different day off during the week will be a good opportunity to finish off the cleaning and such that I need to have done in time for the party, which will save me the stress of having to rush around and get these things done last minute. Plus, like I said before, I think it will be a good move for me to be on hand the day before the party to serve as a point of contact for people who plan on attending, to give them my number and directions and such. It just makes the most sense to me. Plus, I'm not going to lie, I have really missed having a day off in the middle of the week to kind of break the week up a bit. So, that should work out pretty well for me. I am happy with this decision.

So, today I woke up slightly later than usual and had to rush through the makeup process. Still, I didn't rush enough to create an issue for myself and the look that I was trying to achieve today. I saw this tutorial on YouTube for a Jeffree Star inspired look using a few Sugarpill Cosmetics shadows that I wanted to try doing my own take on. Don't get me wrong, the girl who did this look on YouTube did a really good job with it but I found a few different pieces that I felt could have been done more effectively and a few other spots that I felt could have been improved upon in different ways. In spite of the fact that I rushed through it a bit I did feel like I had improved upon the look a lot with what I did with it. It was basically a solid white lid with this gorgeous smoky effect in the crease and outer corner using pink, purple and black. I don't know how to explain that exactly and didn't even take a picture of it to include here to really illustrate. Oh well, though. Once again, though, I found that even after about 12 hours of wear my Sugarpill eye shadows barely showed any signs of wear. Unfortunately, by the end of the day my face was showing a lot of signs of wear. Like I said, I was really exhausted today and found myself getting really hot throughout the day. I actually think at one point, in the later afternoon, I may have had a fever that broke. I'm not sure, though. Either way, it was kind of a rough day to get through. There were a few fun/funny things that popped up throughout the day today, though, that I kind of got a kick out of. One thing that I have to mention, because I find it really exciting, is the fact that I have been asked to do makeup for a member of management on Friday. You see, it is kind of a long-standing tradition at my work that the members of management on my account make this huge deal out of doing a big group themed Halloween costume. They refuse to tell me what the theme is this year, because they are really into it in that secretive kind of way, but I have been asked to bring in a selection of makeup products in a particular color scheme to create a look to go with the costume for one of the members of management. This is all really silly but I am all psyched out for it. I'm totally treating it like I am Kevyn Aucoin getting his first big break as a makeup artist or something like that. I definitely think it will be a lot of fun, though, and I am excited to experiment on somebody else's face. I am particularly excited by the fact that the person I am doing this for is African-American and has a considerably darker skin tone than I have ever worked with before. So, that should wind up being a lot of fun, I think. Another thing that was kind of funny today was the fact that one of my co-workers has come up with the idea to dress up as me for Halloween, which is kind of hilarious. After all, I think if I were more widely known across the country, I would probably be a really popular Halloween costume. I have a very specific look but one that can be emulated somewhat easily. It is unique but also somewhat easy to recreate. So, I think that is a really fun idea. The only issue I take with the whole thing is that he wants me to come to work early and do the makeup for him. I am already going to be really busy that morning getting myself all put together and I don't know how well I could pull off getting myself put together early enough to also get to work early to throw someone else together. Of course, I don't think this guy would necessarily take all that much time to throw together. I also don't really know whether or not he is actually going to go through with the whole thing. If he does, though, I do think it will be pretty hilarious.

Aside from all of that, I don't really have a lot to say about this day. Like I said, I got VERY little sleep last night and am feeling pretty exhausted at this point. I am feeling pretty ready to just curl up and pass out in bed. I have actually been feeling ready to do that all day long. There were a few little emotional messes going on today, none of which were actually my own, that I had a lot of trouble dealing with because of the fact that I was so exhausted. There were a couple of times where I felt like I needed to be there for friends of mine, emotionally, but I simply couldn't make enough sense of anything to really do it. I felt really bad about that but I also felt really bad in general. I don't know which of those bad feelings should have taken precedence but the sleep-deprived one is what wound up winning out. I definitely don't plan to have another night like last night, though. I am already feeling completely exhausted and I am going to stop resisting that feeling and just give in to it. I am keeping my fingers crossed that I will wake in the morning feeling refreshed and ready to face a brand new day. We'll see how that goes, though. Goodnight.